I don't really have much to say today.  Had a relaxing weekend... almost finished knitting this very cool dishcloth (will post pics soon), got some cleaning done, spent time with the roomate Friday, and so on. 

One cool thing I did, that I think I'll make a part of my Sunday evening routine, I thought I'd share with you all.  Our trash pick-up is early Monday morning, so every Sunday PM I take out all our trash.  Yesterday I made the stupid mistake of taking a Sunday afternoon nap, and woke up feeling so nasty that I didn't make it to church. (Dont ya hate it when the nap makes you feel WORSE?)  So, Sunday evening, I was getting all of the trash together.  I had a bag of trash that just wasn't near full, so I was looking around thinking "what else needs to be thrown away?"  I took it in the bedroom and started going through drawers, seeing what all I really didn't need.  I filled up the trash bag, and now have extra room in several drawers!  Woo hoo!!!! I think I'll do this every week.

I submitted an article to be published in a online magazine thingy, and they asked me for a two or three line bio. 

So, that made me think that it might be fun to see what you all would write about YOURSELVES!

Leave YOUR bio here!

TGIF!!!!!

I'm SOOOO ready for the weekend.  I missed my kids ministry last night because I was getting chills and feeling crappy.  Drank a TON of water (10 cups of water, 1 Diet Sprite) , and so today my back is hurting because my body is retaining ALL the stupid water.  I'm feeling better though, only a little feverish today.

My plans for this weekend? Sleep, clean, sleep, church, sleep some more.  Oh, and cook so I'll have something to eat next week for lunch.

Well, five minutes until my workday is done! Adios todos!   

I have to confess to you all.  You know how I said I hadn't had any caffine since Saturday??

Well, halfway though my morning, as I noticed I had NO concentration and a large excess of energy, I realized that the herbal cleansing tea I drank yesterday and this morning both contained caffine.   Oh well... At least I'm giving up the Diet Coke for the moment, so that's a start, right?  *sigh* 

Good morning everyone!

Well, I'm on day 3 of my new "taking control of my life" thingy.  So far, so good.  I got up this morning, read my Bible, showered, exercised (yes, I actually exercised a little this morning! Not much... just enough to feel awake) and went to work.  I've been taking my meds with food now so no more nausea.  I haven't had any caffine (except in chocolate form) since Saturday. 

Haven't made much progress in any other area of my life though.  Last night, I was SO tired.  I got home, put up some laundry, put the sheets back on my bed, and then spent the rest of the evening laying down.  I did get some knitting done though, and learned a new knitting stitch!  Watched Eureka, which as always was absolutely awesome!!! Then I headed to bed, prayed, and eventually fell asleep. 

And guess what?  I currently have NO MIGRANE!!!!!! Woo hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I had one first thing this morning, and feel one coming on now... but I had some pain-free moments!!!! YIPPEE!!!! 

Whether any of these lifestyle changes lessen the migranes or not, I am feeling MUCH better.  My waistline may be the same size, but the fact that I am taking care of myself better, and striving to keep my body healthy, means I can have pride in myself, regardless of my size.  This is one thing I hope I never forget.

Morning everyone!!!

Interesting development in the roomate situation - it seems her 17-year old neice has been begging to live with her.  She's not sure how to feel about that... the neice is deceitful, which is really bad.  I told her maybe the neice could stay the weekends, but now that I said it, I don't know if I can handle it.  I'd miss alone time terribly. But I already committed, so.... *shrug*  I'll deal with it.  If I need to, I can always leave and go hiking.

The neice really does need to get out of her house though.  Her mom died about 3 years ago, and her dad and brother are pretty disrespectful to women.  I know if she does move in, I'll have to move out... there is NOT room for 3 people in our house.  It's overcrowded as it is.  So, I need to have a sit-down talk with the roomate about it.  Let her know that if she feels that's the decision she's going to make, I'll find another place.  (Which I was wanting to do anyway, so....)

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Well, so far the new unofficial "taking charge of my life" effort is starting out well.  I haven't sat down and really made a plan, but I DID get up earlier this morning... read my Bible as I listened to the rain falling (mmm... I love the sound of rain!!!), got up, showered, did some stretches, and then on to work.  Oh yeah, and I got dressed.  (Thought you might need to know that, in case you're one of those visual people who picture everything I say. LOL)

I'm currently thinking that I'll stay on the anti-depressants no longer than 3 months. My goal is to have my life more in order by that time, so that I'll have less stress coming from WITHIN.  I'm still working on the details of my plan though. I know I want to get in shape physically & spiritually, get my house & car clean and keep them that way, and work towards my trip to the Middle East.  As for the small goals that will lead up to that? I'm still working on figuring those out.  

Any suggestions?

Popping onto the roomate's computer for a few to update you all.

Except I have absolutely nothing to say. LOL  Nothing dramatic happening... slept most of the afternoon, now it's 10PM and I'm sleepy again.  Otherwise the meds don't seem to be affecting me too much.  Oh, and I'm REALLY queasy.  Great for weight loss though!!!!

Working on the whole "being overwhelmed" thing.  Learning to say no to things has helped a lot.  Did that several times this week.  Also setting some new goals.  A friend of mine and I have committed to trying to exercise 10 minutes every day.  It's a very small step, BUT it's a step!  I want to make small changes in my life, that will one day become a part of my routine.  What are these things?  Well, keep reading my blog and I'll update you all once I get things worked out. 

For now?  I need to change into jammies and get exercising... note to you all though, make sure you warm up before exercising... "charlie horses" are NOT fun at 8:20 AM on the weekends!!!!

This is my project for MMM this week (there's a link on my sidebar to it, I'm too lazy to insert the link here).  I'd written it Saturday, before any of the recent medical drama. With the migranes and other things, I just felt as if everything in my life was out of control. The house was dirty, the car had junk in it, my kids ministry stuff wasn't prepared (tho it didn't need to be til Thursday), I'd let obligations to others fall through, I hadn't gotten adequate sleep, hadn't exercised in centuries, hadn't spent enough time with the kittens to keep them from being wild... and there didn't seem to be a way to get on top of things.  So I wrote this: 

Things haven't gotten dramatically better since then, but progress has been made.  Each day I'm trying to get more done... to catch up a little bit more.  It's working so far!

So let me ask you all... what do you do to keep from becoming overwhelmed?

TGIF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I'm so so so glad it's the weekend!!!! I don't have any plans per se, but just looking forward to some time away from work.  Maybe I'll actually be able to sleep in tomorrow?  One can always hope. 

I still can't get my CDs burned from my computer to work.  I'm not sure if the problem is with my CD burner or if it's with my computer at work.  We never use the CD drive on the computer here, so who knows if it actually works *shrug*  So today will be yet another pictureless day.  *sad sigh*

I'm on day 3 of the new med... it's is making me a little sleepy, kinda like being perpetually on Benadryl, but the wierdest thing is that it's making me DREAM!  Now, unlike most people, I almost NEVER dream. So I'm finding these very weird dreams to be, um.... very wierd!!!!! LOL  But so far no other side effects!!!! Yippee!  One friend has agreed to closely monitor my moods and let me know if she notices any changes.  I didn't tell her what I'm taking... it's been quite fun dodging that question.  "So, what did the doctor prescribe you?"  I usually answer with "Oh, one of those long unpronounceable names... (It really does have one, it's like fluosomethingorother... not a lie! lol)"

Well, in celebration of my new drug of choice, I'll be including a "Prozac Joke of the Day" in my blog periodically. (But not daily, so don't get all excited!)  Here we go:

PROZAC JOKE OF THE DAY!!

Top 8 Indicators That Your Employer Has Changed to a Cheaper Health Care Plan:

• Directions to your Doctor's office include "Take a left when you enter the trailer park"
• The tongue depressors taste faintly of Fudgesicles
• The only proctologist in the plan is "Gus" from Roto-Rooter.
• The only item listed under Preventative Care Coverage is "An apple a day."
• Your primary care physician is wearing the pants you gave to Goodwill last month.
• "The patient is responsible for 200% of out of network charges," is not a typographical error.
• The only expense covered 100% is "embalming."
• Your Prozac comes in different colors with little M's on them.

It's Thursday... one day away from Friday... I can make it one more day, right??? LOL  I'm SO ready for the weekend.  These migranes just drain me.

I'm on day 2 of the new meds.  Planning to take two of my friends aside and ask them to "watch" me as I take these meds... looking for any differences in my moods (tho, I'm moody to begin with, so how can you tell that?) and things like that.  Sometimes an outside perspective is good.  So far all I feel is tired.  I decided to try the meds for 2 weeks... or maybe even a whole month (that's when my prescription runs out) and then see if it's helped.  I'm feeling

Tried to burn a CD last night, but no luck... the one here at work won't read it.  I had some art journal pages, some pics, and some poetry on it.  So if you wonder why my blog is looking drab, that's why. 

I'm going to go see if I can remember the poem I wrote... I need some opinions on it.

Hasta later!!!! :)

Okay, the time has come for me to be transparent on my blog. 

A very odd thing happened to me when I went to the dr yesterday, that I didn't really want to share.  But I need support, so I'm sharing anyway.

When I went to the doctor, in the midst of all of the different things she wanted to try for the migranes, were two little things that sounded very innocent on their own, but when combined later, are flipping me out.

First of all, the new prescription.  No, it wasn't Imitrex.... it was Prozac.  She didn't really give a reason... just gave me the prescription while telling me about other things. 

She also recommended I see a psychiatrist... to learn "stress reduction exercises". 

I have gone, in the scope of like 1 hour, from being a decently well adjusted (though I DO have some serious issues, I'm healing, I'm coping) to being on Prozac and seeing a shrink.  

I'm really upset by this... and today they called me, AT WORK, to set up my appointment... so I had to explain to my boss & co-worker why they were calling.  The psych office is only open when the dr's office is, so I actually can't even go in there.... except MAYBE Friday afternoons, but the person who called doesn't work on Fridays... and I really liked her... so I'm going to call back on my lunch break and see what time they open.  If they take appointments at 7 or even 7:30, I could just do it in the morning... have my appointment, and then come in to work... not take lunch (eat at my desk instead) if I was late.  I mean, once a week, I could do that right? 

So, I'm flipping out here.  Not only because my doctor seems to think I may need mental help, but because the mental help isn't really available.  I could go to the local college (they have a psychology thingymagiger) or to the local counseling center (I plan to avoid that option if at all possible, for a long list of reasons)

But overall, I just feel like sitting down and crying a while.  I thought I hid my issues better than this...  I mean, I DO get nervous when I go to the dr, but so do PLENTY of "normal" people.  So how, in the course of 3 doctor visits, could I give off the impression that I need professional help??

I need a hug.