I found this one on Marilyn's Blog!

You choose...

free laundry detergent for a year --or-- free Starbucks for a year (Think of all the cappucinos and pastries! The hours sitting at a little table with a good book, sipping away... )

an appearance on "Oprah" --or-- one more hour with a deceased loved one  (*sad sniffle*)

the cure for cancer --or-- saving your child's leg

a library filled with your favorite books --or-- a library filled with your favorite music CD's

running water --or-- electricity  (I'd rather live without electricity than use an outhouse!!!)

attending the Academy Awards as the date of your favorite movie star --or-- a day with the world leader of your choice

spend a year 100 years from now --or-- spend a year 100 years in the past

a free week on any tropical island --or-- a free week on the space shuttle (

a complete remodel of your home --or-- funds to build a homeless shelter in your neighborhood (We don't have homeless people in our neighborhood, they're in other parts of the city)

a limp --or-- baldness

win an Olympic medal --or-- win $10 million in the lottery

lose your eyesight --or-- lose your speech (I'm shy anyway lol)

a feature about you in People magazine --or-- holding the hand of a pediatric AIDS patient as she takes her last breath (Neither!!!!!!)

fame --or-- fortune

finding true love --or-- finding your right work

free movies for life --or-- free massages for life

stay your same race and be poor for life --or-- change race and be independently wealthy (I'd make a cute little Mexican! I speak Spanish, I adore chorizo.... )

room service --or-- mani/pedi

insomnia --or-- horrible PMS

Categories: Memes

I'm sure you all are in DEEP suspense wondering how I spent my evening last night since we didnt' have church.  WELL, being the overly anal-retentive person that I am, I spent the night CLEANING.  I did NOT get to take a nap liked I'd planned, because that was the ONE time of the day that my body felt awake.  (Of course! LOL)   However, I do now have one MUCH cleaner bedroom.  :o)  Which is definately nice!

I'm angry at my father... I had lost his phone number, but after I called him at Thanksgiving, I figured SURELY he'd call me at SOME point so I could get the number... But no.  Today I got his new number from my distant cousin Tracy, who he actually HAD called.  And to top it all off, I know that next time I talk to my family, I'll hear about what a horrible kid I am because we aren't in contact.  HELLO! Who is supposed to be the parent here?????  Obviously I am.  How could I not know that?! lol  *shaking head*  Surely every 25 year old woman longs for a 55 year old male child!

I'm setting goals for myself this week: Spiritual, exercise, artistic, and Spanish... we'll see how that works.  I'll let you know more about that later.

So, tonight I plan to run to the grocery store, get ingredients for the cake i'd planned to make and bring into work for like ever... (I made it Saturday but forgot I needed two cake mixes instead of 1... so I had to use a lemon, and it was kinda gross)  then I'll go to Menards and get a new filter for our vaccuum... then home, make the cake, and probably clean the kitchen so that I can do artistic stuff or study without annoyance.  And because I have DEFINATE spring fever.  It's warming up outside, the sun's shining, we've been having lovely thunderstorms... *contented sigh* 

Then, tonight should be two episodes of Stargate, so I'll probably clean the living room while I watch those.  Or maybe crochet... or sleep... the roomates gone for a few days so I may just nap on the couch.  We'll see.  The kitty would probably be overjoyed to lay on my tummy and cuddle as I sleep.

Categories: Life

Well, so far my weekends been great, albeit not so productive.  Yesterday I basically messed around, didn't do much... slept til 9:30, read chapter 9 of the Artist's Way, got to hang out with my friend, who's like a sis to me, so that was awesome.  And she made me chorizo con patatas!!!!! Yeah, I'm all about Mexican food!!!!  

*WARNING* Spiritual thoughts are here.  If you don't want to hear them, skip down to the blue text.

Went to church this morning, and heard some inspirational things:

Today is the tomorrow you were waiting for yesterday.   (You may have to repeat that to yourself a few times before you really grasp that one.)

Statistics show that 1 out of every 1 person will die.  (Yeah, I know you're shocked! ha!)

And one awesome song:
I come to you Lord,
Time and time again.
Needing answers
To questions I don't understand.
But today Lord I come to you
Asking nothing in return
I just want to love you.
I just want to love you.

In other news... my cousin Amy is pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm excited!!!! If any of you have a yahoo account, you can go to her blog and give her some love & congrats!

My cousin Debby's hubby was in an accident, and hurt his shoulder pretty bad.... he was hit by a drunk driver.  And he was driving for work, so they should have paid him workman's comp, but they're balking.  So if y'all could keep him in your prayers/thoughts/etc. that would be appreciated!

Well, now that I've rewarded myself with some blog time,  I need to get going.  I have great plans for tonight, so I need to get started... I'll report back later and tell ya what all I did.  But at the moment thunder is rumbling in the background, so I'm gonna get my computer shut off and some candles lit... I LOVE storms!!!!!!!!!

             Time

Time seems so short
So much to do
Little time to do it in

So many people needing
My time, my energy
Fighting to keep some for self

Wasting so much on trash
Activities unworthy
Of my time and attention

I must make it a priority
To remember:
Time Is Limited

I was reading a post about time at Tess's Blog, and it inspired me to write this poem for Poetry Thursday.

I'm hoping that this weekend I'll use my time better.  I'd like to read... I'm halfway through reading The Covenant and Magic Daughter... I've GOT to get cleaning done.  My roomate is off from her college classes next week, I thought it would be SOOOO uplifting for her if I could manage to get some extra major cleaning done now, so she wouldn't have to mess with that stuff during her week off.  I want to make my wierd cherry cheesecake dump cake that I made up a recipe for... if it tastes good, I'll share the recipe with you all.  It probably won't though, so don't get your hopes up to high LOL 

Speaking of time... it's exactly closing time here, and someone just came to get their taxes done.  *sigh*  Gotta go.   OH WAIT they're walking to another business!!! PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, getting out of here before I do have a REAL customer!!!! LOL

Yes, I mean that will ALL my heart!!!! T G I F!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  No more work until... well.. technically I'm at work now (can't ya tell lol) but at my 2nd job, so... anyhow...

So far my weekend plans are the same as they are every weekend... go home, clean & watch Sci-Fi Friday, clean more, sleep... wake up Saturday, clean more, do laundry, etc... go to my friend's house in Indy (to Spanish church Kaybee, in case you were wondering LOL) and spend the night there (which means no sleep) and then, on to church Sunday AM.  No church Sunday PM so that means if I get all my cleaning done, guess what I'll be doing Sunday???  Art, Reading, and TV!!!!!!!!!!  Wooooo hooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo   I have no intention of telling ANYONE about the fact that there's no church Sunday except you all... that way no one can make demands on my spare time!

To update you all on some of the things I've asked you about and then never mentioned again:

Exercise:  I gave up on the idea of going to Curves, and am very disappointed.  In my hometown, Curves was made for women who weren't in the peak of shape, no men were allowed near it, and no men could see in it.  So, I go to ours here, and although the glass windows in the front are covered, the glass door is not.  I could see the entire teeny tiny room from outside that door, and so could everyone else (like ya know, MEN?!) that was walking by on their way to any of the businesses in the strip mall.  So... no go.  I have ankle weights and some heavier dumbells, so I'll just workout at home.  BTW Exercise suggestion here:  Last night, I knew I wouldn't really have time to exercise too much, so what I did is strap on the 5 pound ankle weights as I went about my evening, and lemme tell ya it really does become exercise after about 20 minutes of walking in those things!!!  Good way to burn extra calories and strengthen muscles while doing your normal daily stuff.  

Oh, and since I'm not going to Curves, that means I can exercise while watching the Sci-Fi channel.  I have a daily date set with the SG-1 team, a set of dumbells, and a set of ankle weights. :o)  I exercise during the show and then clean house during the commercials.  Very nice workout I might add.

Social stuff:  Feeling better, and also made an appointment to talk to someone about the feelings I've been having.  Started to read the book that the Other Jana recommended about the subject too, but haven't gotten to far into it yet. I'm deliberating on talking to the person who said the rude thing that set this whole thing off... we'll see.  

Back Pain: The pain in my back pretty much healed up, and unfortunately I haven't made time yet to get that massage I want... but one day I will, and I'll blog all about it! :)

I've given myself a new little fun project... I'm going through the photos at G's site, and writing a story/essay/fun thought about each of them.  (Well, I may skip a few...) maybe one day he and I can even join forced to create a MEME! Whadya think G? 

So to see the pic that inspired today's writings, go: here

Fresh Eyes:

If I looked at my life through the eyes of my inner child:

The leftover icecicle behind the entertainment center isn't a nuisance!  It's sparkly and shiny, something new to play with and then break in pieces! Throw it up in the air and watch it shimmer!

Fashion would not longer be about what's "in" or what others think... i'd be about the pure pleasure of wearing the velvet jacket because it feels nice against my skin.  The fun feeling of trying on scarves and purses and shoes, just to see what fun looks I can make.

Art wouldn't have to be about making anything.  Painting would have to be about creating a flower.  It could be about the thrill of seeing the colors that come about as you mix other colors together! Seeing what all kinds of cool strokes you could make with the brush. 

Instead of looking at the brown leafless trees and grumbling about having to WAIT even LONGER for spring... the placement of a trees limbs would be annalyized, to decide how best to climb to the top!

Doing dishes wouldn't be quite such a drudgery, since it DOES of course involve BUBBLES!!!!! (Which can be played with all through the dish-doing)

All of this makes me really appreciate my inner child...  I think me and her need to spend some extra time re-connecting this week. :)

From Shelly's Book Shelf:

1. Do you reread books?
Of course!!!! Who doesn't???

2. If yes, which ones have you reread and why?
I love to re-read my classics... Nancy Drew, Trixie Belden, Jane Eyre, Rebecca, anything by Mary Higgins Clark... ones that just never get old!  I don't think that reading my normal suspense books over again would be nearly so fun, once i already knew who the killer was.  :(

Last weeks MMM was "If I Was A Color Today, I'd Be:"

Monday, when I wrote this, I was:

BLUE

So, this is what's going on in my life.  And yes, I really am serious about getting help, hopefully I'll be able to give you an update on that by the beginning of next week. 

It's been a problem for a long while but something happened over the weekend that made it just bubble over... a comment was made by someone, about "people I'd be embarassed to be seen with" and all of the sudden it was like "she means people like me".  *matter of fact tone of voice* And, yes, she would be.  A lot of people would be. That's not an exaggeration, and I know those people are shallow and ignorant, but it doesn't change the facts.   

So, this is where I'm at... trying to figure out how to fit into a world of people of "higher socio-economic" status while still being true to myself.  And, to be honest, it's been one of the hardest things I've dealt with in a long time.  I've broken down at least 4 times this week, and that's really not me.  

It affects so many areas of my life, but the one that troubles me the most is that it hinders my ability to make a difference in the lives of others.  And that bothers me a lot...  in fact, the realization of that is what finally pushed me to decide to get help. 

I've hit rock bottom on this subject, so there's no place to go but UP!!!!!!!!!!! :o)

I just wanted to pop in and say that umm....

I have nothing to say.

Nothing exciting is going on... just the same old routine.  Plan to go home tonight and experiment with a new recipe I created in my head! I guess that's kinda exciting!

I went home last night and actually made a meal for myself... (not leftover casserole for once).  I cooked a chicken breast in the George Foreman grill, made Pasta-Roni, and some Garlic Cheese Texas Toast.  Very good! I'm eating the leftovers as I type this!

Today has been SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO busy!!!  I was all excited because the manager is only working half days today, tomorrow, & friday.   Then today, after working SOOOO hard to get all my work done early so I could do fun stuff when he left, the phones started ringing off the hook and now I'm BEHIND on the orders!!!!!

*sigh*  So, I'm going to be a good little employee and type up orders instead of enjoying my lunch, so that everything will ship on time.  :(  Hopefully tomorrow & Friday I'll get some "fun" time though!!!!!!

Well, I had this long rambling ranting post started, but it seemed unhealthily negative, so I scrapped it before I started to feel depressed LOL

I'm HORRIBLY behind on the AW.  Well, I shouldn't say that.  I should be on Chapter 9, but when I started chapter 8 last week it was SOOOOO not applicable to my life, so I quit reading halfway through and gave up for the week. But then yesterday when I went to read chapter 9, i happened to look at the last half of chapter 8 and it SO applied to me!!!! So, read most of it, and then tonight at work I'll read chapter 9.  Haven't been on an Artist's Date in forever, so I'll try to do that this week too.  (Perhaps to that massage i always say I want?)

I have several collages and other artsy things "in process" at the moment.  kept having to rip out my stupid scarf because I couldn't get the gauge right, but I think i have it figured out now!!! No progress on the shawl yet, that's something I may do tonight. 

Had a wonderful weekend.  Met up with a friend of mine who's like a sister to me, spent the night with her & her famliy on Saturday.  I hadn't seen her in forEVER, so it was fun seeing all that happened in her life since then.   Her two boys have grown so much!!!!! 

I've renewed my obsession with the Spanish language!!! I am now learning the past tense of verbs! (How exciting, huh???? Hahahaha)

Well, breaktime is over, gotta get back to my job!!!!