I wanted to let you all know that I seem to be having a flare-up of a carpel-tunnel type pain in my wrist, so I probably won't be on much in the next day or two.  I'm going to try and not use the wrist any more than is necessary until Monday. 

Have a great weekend everyone!!!

Here we go:

1. I did my morning pages all 7 days.  But, they weren't too helpful several of the days because I did them as a formality, doing like 1 page instead of 3. I think I saw how emotional I had gotten at the first of the week and decided to give myself a break.  I wasn't really surprised at anything i found myself writing, I'm always thinking about crazy stuff LOL

2.  I had a great artist's date, I already wrote about it.

3. Where there any other issues this week that you consider significant for your recovery?  Yes, I had two things that really impacted me.  The first was when my first arty thing went online... i hadn't expected to be that afraid of reactions.  I let it stay online though, and that's what REALLY matters.  I felt better for doing it, and i think next time i'll be less intimidated. 

Secondly, I finally "got" the concept of "Great Creator, I will take care of the quantity, You take care of the quality"  which basically means... I don't have to "work" so much at "getting good"  I can just relax and enjoy DOING whatever it is.  I can let anything artistic that I do be something I PLAY at, instead of work at.  And through that it'll become art without me knowing it.  I hope.  *smile*

I made my list of two goals of this week, then forgot about them.  I think they were to spend some time on the computer just MESSING.  Not on the net, not in a particular program... just open a program at random and see "Hmm, what happens if I press THIS button".  The other was probably either to work on my Spanish or Arabic.  Not sure.  *shrug* 

I also wrote out my three affirmations at the beginning of the week, and then forgot about them! lol

Made my "life pie."  Several pieces were not near where they should be... work, exercise were the lowest, play & spirituality were the highest.

Five on Friday:

Time for a meme!  Had to do this one, cause it is WALL flowers.  (That's my last name... Wall.)

Wall Flowers

1. What is the wallpaper on your computer?   Outer Space scene with planets & comets & stuff.

2. What color are the walls in the room you're in right now?  Off-white (blech! The walls here at work are DEPRESSING!)

3. Describe some of the wallpapers you have lived with.  I don't think we've ever had wallpaper.  We've had several colors of paneling though, and a couple of rooms were painted. 

4. Would you ever consider using wallpaper to decorate? What would it look like?  I DEFINATELY want my dining room to have some kind of antique-ish wallpaper.  Maybe with little roses on it.

5. If you could use anything not specifically intended for walls (no paint, wallpaper, etc) to spruce up your walls, without any nasty consequences, what would you use?Well, it WOULD be fun to have a layer of paint, and then on top of it paint swirlys with glitter glue!!!  

Sitting here at work, enjoying a YUMMY taco from Taco Bell.  I love fridays!!!! 

Tonight is my ONE night off this week with nothing going on, and I have every intention of enjoying it FULLY!  I plan on blasting my little computer stereo while going on a cleaning frenzy.  If all goes as planned, I might even post a pic of my nice clean bedroom.  But don't be too excited, it was decorated before I moved in so it shows none of my personality.  LOL

I was looking for events for my artist dates, and so far the only events going on this weekend are concerts (which I hate), bingo (boring!), and meditation (my inner ADHD artist child would NOT appreciate that.)  And one very interesting show at the theatre which only costs $10!  Hmmm... *looking more*  There's also a Native American History museum... open Sunday afternoons! And lots of neat exibits at places I might go to next Saturday. 

OH and before I forget it, here is the pic of my nice clean car, complete with a can of diet coke! (Not totally empty, therefore not trash!)  That was taken last week, so I have to admit to you that it's already not that clean... but still better, and I plan to clean it again tonight if it's nice outside.

I was tagged by Patti:

4 Jobs You Have Had In Your Life:

Tax Guru

Waitress (Horrible Waitress, to be exact)

Database Manager

Office Manager

4 Movies You Could Watch Over And Over:

Lord of the Rings

Star Wars (the new ones)

The Mummy Series

Indiana Jones Series

4 Places You Have Lived:

North Chicago (yeah, that's really the name.  Creative huh?)

Highland Park, IL (North suburb of Chicago)

Indianapolis, IN (South side)
Terre Haute, IN  (Currently!)

4 TV Shows You Love To Watch:

CSI

StarGate

Criminal Minds

Without a Trace

4 Places You Have Been On Vacation:

Nashville, TN

Orlando & Daytona Beach, FL

Mall of America, MN

London, KY (My absolute FAVORITE place in the world!)

4 Websites You Visit Daily:

Kat's Paws

Mrs D

Be Alive, Believe, Be You

Random Blogs

4 Of Your Favorite Foods:

Enchiladas Reales (You have to eat them to understand!)

Macaroni & Cheese, spirals

Cherizo con juevos

Stovetop Stuffing

4 Places You Would Rather Be Right Now:

India

Middle East (Asma's House!!!!!!)

Ireland

Jane's House (my older cuz)

4 Bloggers You Are Tagging:

Iryn

The Other Jana

Meigh

Sandy

In the Artists Way's weekly tasks this week, we're supposed to add 5 more "perfect" lives to our list of 5 from last week.  I also decided to give ya some details about mine.  So here we go.

1.  World Traveler - I'd love a career where I traveled and got paid for it.  Taking photos of exotic destinations, or writing stories about families I stay with.

2. Author - This one and the one above it are probably the careers closest to my reality.  I've tried to write books, but never really gotten to deep into it.  I love the idea of writing things for kids - teens.  Devotions, non-fiction, even the idea of fiction for that age sounds fun. 

3. Photographer - Preferably nature photographer, or maybe a photographer for a gardening magazine?

4. Lab person - our junior year of high school we got to "shadow" a professional for a day, and I choose to shadow a lab tech at a local hospital.  It was SOOOO awesome.  I got to see them test urine, blood, and best of all I got to see what they do when a tumor is removed.  (In the form of an amputated breast actually).  At least at THAT time (like 8 years ago?) they removed the tumor, and injected it with some sort of dye.  The die went through the tissue, allowing them to see it more clearly.  Then they could examine the tissue and be able to give more information about the type of tumor it was, so that the person could receive the best possible treatment.    Anyway, I would love to work in some type of a lab, whether in a forensic lab, a hospital lab, or some type of research & developement lab... but I would last, because I thrive on human contact.  *sigh*

5. Professional Computer Geek - I'd charge money to strangers to fix their puters, set up databases, network them, design games or graphics, and other misc. geeky things.  My friends would pay me with junk food! Hahahaha

6. Social Worker - Jocelyn reminded me of this one.  I used to dream about being a social worker, resucing kids from abusive situations and being a stable person in their life that they could trust.

7. Volunteer/Orphanage Worker - I'd love to work with women or children who are disadvantaged, whether because of a lack of education, lack of freedom in their country, or whatever...

8. Guru - I'd love to make a career out of studying religions and spouting off wisdom.

9. Wife & Mommy - I'd love to be the kind of mommy that plays with her kids, who's eyes sparkle with life, who adopts half the neighborhood children as her own to support with her love & attention, who has a husband who she loves to see smile, a home that probably wouldn't be a palace and I'm sure would never be spotless, but where even strangers could feel welcomed and safe. I always wanted a big family too, and so far I still do. 

10.  CSI/FBI Investigator - I'm too adicted to CSI and Without A Trace not to add that to the list.  It WOULD be neat to work in a job where you put clues together, or made a profile, that got a bad guy off the streets.

The Case of the Dismembered Pie

*using best detective story voice*

The day began with a simple mission: Show up at the appointed destination at 6 o'clock sharp, bearing a desert. 

By 2, I had formulated a plan.  At 4:30 I would leave my office, head to Kroger, and be back at the house with ingredients by 5.  I'd chosen several possible deserts, given to me by friends, but the most likely was this:

I plan to go and do some SERIOUS budget analysis as soon as I get the chance... I'd like to be heading to join my friends who are staying in the Middle East by August.

So I need to figure up:

My current debts

My current weekly income (both jobs combined)

A new weekly budget

And then I need to see how much money I can save up each week for my goal.  After I get that calculated, I need to e-mail my friends in the Middle East, and get some kind of budget going.  Since they are already there, they can tell me more of what the expenses will be like. 

Once I get a better picture of my financial situation, I can make some better life decisions about the job thing... Not just about whether to leave this job or not, but also about what kind of income I'll need in order to make a new job worth quitting the old one for.  (aka, is $40 less a week worth having undisturbed self-esteem? $80? Is working an extra month before getting to the Middle East worth it?)

So, that's the plan for now. 

Tomorrow I'll be posting reason #1 of my new "101 Reasons Why I Don't Bake".  Be sure to tune in! :)

From: Wednesday Mind Hump

This week's theme is, oddly enough, Crank Up The Stereo Day. 

1.  What artist and/or band (or a few) makes you want to crank your stereo so the whole neighborhood can hear?  Supertones, Kurt Carr

2.  What are a few of your favorite songs to crank on your stereo?
Thankful - Mary, Mary
Brave - Nicole Nordeman
Awesome Wonder - Kurt Carr (gotta love the excessive bass!)
Shackles - Mary Mary

3.  What artist or style of music do you NOT want to hear cranked up on a stereo? Classical, Opera... those have GOT to be abominations!

4.  What "stereo" do you use most often: regular stereo, DVD player, clock radio, computer, Ipod, or car stereo?  Computer, Car occasionally

Boss was on the warpath again this morning.  Today I missplaced a report.  I asked him if he had it, in the NICEST, POLITEST, NON-ACCUSATORY way  (cause his ego is REALLY fragile, and every time you ask him a question he says you're accusing him) I could muster.  He looked, said no, and sent me to ask two of the guys.  They didn't have it, no one did... I searched, searched, and finally found it in a folder on my desk.  I told my boss that I found it...

And he decided that the normal "pull-me-in-the-office-and-scream-at-me" tactic wasn't enough, so he launched into a series of PUBLIC humilitations.  As loud as he possibly could, so everyone in the building could hear (literally, it's a small building).  Unfounded, unreasonable, downright rude accusations were hurled my way, with no possibility of defending myself.

I went to the back room, had a good cry, and now I'm back to work. 

And actually calm, which is kinda wierd.  I'm seeing exactly how long I can stay at this job... the money is good, and being out of debt is a priceless thing. :)  Not worth the price of good self-esteem though, so another outburst or two from the boss, and this job will be HISTORY!