I think I can definately answer the question Mrs. Diamond asked in her blog. Well, she didn't EXACTLY ask it... but I know that's what she was thinking. LOL

Why does she not crave adventures of the traditional kind?

Because I crave all of her share.  Yep.  LOL That's gotta be it.

I think that's my problem at the moment... my desire for the great adventure has NOT been satisfied. 

The adventures I long for in the natural realm are all basically involving one thing.  TRAVEL.  I wanna see the WORLD! Hike up mountains! (Well, little ones, I'm kinda afraid of heights) See other cultures! Eat new ethnic foods! And take pictures of EVERYTHING!!!!!!

My absolute favorite website at the moment is Virtual Tourist. www.virtualtourist.com There I can read journals and see pics of the adventures other people are having that I want. 

And what am I doing?  Sitting at home, in Rockville IN, growing deeper and deeper in debt, and never even having the money to drive and go on the smallest of "adventures."  This is NOT what I thought my life would be like.

I crave fellowship.  Meeting new people! Making new friends! To me that is probably one of the greatest adventures in life.  Instead, once again, I sit at home in good old Rockville.  I'm currently trying to ponder ways to get fellowship... our church isn't invited to many other services, and I don't really know how to find out when other services are going on. 

I crave a move of God.  And to be honest... I'm not fulfilled in that either.  We just aren't having the move of God in our area that we desire.  I want to go to church and see lives changing.  Instead, I see the same old people, battling the same old problems... new people come, new people go... I think I'm the last new convert who has stayed in our church. All the others after me backslid.

I want to see lives changed... I want to see people delivered. I want to see strongholds broken.  I want to hear of the miraculous... instead I feel myself being sucked into a rut of complacent boredom.

Am I the prolem?  I don't know.  Am I doing my part to solve the problem? No.  Spiritually my life isn't what I wanted either. And who's fault is that?  Yep.  It's mine.  I have grown carnal and lazy... I don't pray for revival like I really care about it... I don't fast. Ever. To be honest, lately I feel sick when I really look at the woman inside.  How could I let this happen?

I'm not even sure how to SOLVE the problem. I want to leave, to move to a new church, to make a new start.  I want to find a church that has what mine lacks... maybe even take it back to Rockville one day.  But God hasn't told me where to go... I mean, church-wise.  My pastor's wife doesn't believe it's the will of God for me to move. 

And I'm afraid.  My pastor's wife offered to let me stay in her house for a couple of months to get on my feet.  She promised to pray with me, take care of me, give me a home... but if I stay, I'll REALLY make myself sick.  I'll have sold out... compromised...

But I don't have the courage to leave.  I'm terrified that I'll step out into the unknown... and find that my place is back in my safe little home church. 

This song keeps coming into my mind (actually, I think God put it there) as I worry about whether moving is the right choice or not:

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves

To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand

But the waves are calling out my name
And they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again. "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"

Chorus:
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
The voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

On second thought Mrs. D, I guess longing for adventure doesn't do a whole lot for ya if you lack the courage to actually EMBARK on the adventure huh?  Maybe I'm the true one who is "chicken-livered" LOL